ʕ≧ᴥ≦ʔ All Because of a Teddy ʕ≧ᴥ≦ʔ

May 15, 2015 ; Friday
Good morning! I woke up very late today. Imagine that I woke up on 10:48 a.m. That’s almost going to 11 but 12 minutes earlier. So for me, it may be a happy lunch or brunch. So I need to double effort the food I’m eating but I don’t to be so ‘full’ that my tummy might explode. But I know that won’t happen. Luckily, I don’t have to wait for the Crown Boss on Beat Your Boss 3 because it’s already past 11 a.m. See ya! (Sorry, it’s a late post.)———————————————————————————————————————————Already finished with lunch and a little breakfast and … little dish washing! Yup, I just washed a few dishes but many glasses about 6. Thanks to Mama, I got to wash a little only but maybe in the evening it’ll much more like yesterday. Well, you might be asking what I took for that ‘little breakfast’. Well, just one-piece pancake and a few hotdogs.

Mama said a spoiler yesterday of where we are going to tomorrow. The carnival was one but it wasn’t really sure yet. Continuing, we are going to the Taoist Temple again like the previous visit … but without Daddy. Sad. Just sad. 😦 Mama said he may be here by Monday next week or maybe just next week. I hope they’re okay there at home. Please make them safe. We miss him already.

There’s a summer outing of their office this year but he has no companions. Our relatives back are shy to come, even Ate MecMec. No, especially Ate Mecmec. every employee may at least bring about 3-5 members of their family to join this outing. Daddy has no companions because our relatives are shy just like I said so the other members of his office mates may fill-up those slots. I hope he enjoyed and nothing happened bad to him during that outing.

Going back, The other one was ‘The Temple of Leah’. Finally. I waited and wanted to go there even once. Now it’s finally coming true! 😀 Mama said it’s educational but I say … it’s about Greek mythology! 😀 I just hope I do have a fun time there and don’t waste such a beautiful day. I need to relax and just enjoy. It’s one of my dreams I’m talking about, hello! 😀 It’s a dream come true! 😀

I have nothing further to say. So I might as well say goodbye again. Wait for the next updates later. Bye!———————————————————————————————————————————Well, actually I’m done with lunch and my bath time. I washed only a few dishes only because Mama already washed the first batch. I got to play in the laptop again but I played the ‘Gourmania 3:Zoo Zoom’. I also did some ‘JaDine fangirling’ even though I’m not a JaDine fan. For the fangirling, I watched some vids on YT. A laundry woman was here in the morning ’till afternoon. She asked if what age I was. She was a little surprised when she knew I was just 12. Maybe she thought I was much older. But fortunately, I’m not.———————————————————————————————————————————Not to my expectations, I was into another problem like our last visit in Cebu. It’s all because of Nico’s teddy. I know. He’s getting old for that. He says he’s a ‘baby’ and ‘fat’ even if he isn’t. He thinks teddies are friends (yes they are but they really aren’t) and have life. I just don’t know what’s in his little tiny mind right now. I just don’t understand that person even if he’s my ‘freaking’ brother. So just because I had vicks on my hands, put it in my nose and handled ‘Swissle’-the stupid teddy as I like to all it. He smelled it and blamed me for it (I know it’s my fault but I hate it when someone blames me). (The next section explains my feelings in Filipino and some English. If you know Filipino, good for you. If not, you may consult Google Translate. Good luck!)

Nakakainis!. Lagi nalang ako nagagalit o naiiyak dahil kay Nico. 😢 Hinawakan ko man lang ang ‘stupid teddy’ niya na si Swissle na siyang dahilan din ng away. Malas na teddy! 😡 Lagi nalang ako. 😡 Wala naman akong ginagawang masama! 😡 Malamang kampi si Mama doon. Obvious naman. I hate my life! 😥 Wala nalang akong gagawin para walang mangyari. +Hindi lamang nagcomfort si Mama sa akin. Ang sama naman. Palagi namang ganito ang mangyayari. Pero hindi naman kami nagtatampo kay Mama kahit palaging ganoon. Minsan feel ko hindi ako mahal ni Mama. Kahit tanungin mo si Mama kung love niya ako, oo malamang ang sagopt niyan dahil anak niya ako. Mas love niya pa nga siguro si Nico dahil may ‘sakit’ yun. Sakit sa utak. Anxiety problems. Si Aljo naman dahil bunso. Halos lahat naman ay may scenario tulad nyan. Mas mahal ang may sakit o bunso. Hindi naman ako bunso o may sakit so hindi ako ‘ganun’ ka mahal ni Mama. ‘Wala’ din lang ako sa buhay niya siguro. Walang-wala. Useless ako. Kapag kailangan lang ako ginagamit or kung tinatamad sa mga gusto nilang ipakuha or pagawin. Minsan nga hindi na. Feeling ko palagi akong left out. Sinabi pa niya nga kanina, ‘Kung iiya-iyak lang kayo, umuwi nalang tayo sa Albay.’ Imagine, nagawang sabihin ni Mama yun. Nahurt naman ako. I hate he! I hate her! I hate her talaga! 😡😡😡 Parang hindi naman siya naging mother sa akin. Almost forgot to add this, Nico hit me with his ‘pathetic notebook’. So rude! 😡 Mas lalong naging masama ang tingin ko sa sarili kong brother. Lahat na masama.Wala ng mabait sa mundo.Ewan ko ba kung meron pa bang nagmamahal sa akin. Mas hindi ko alam kung may totoong pa bang mabait sa mundo.’Yan ang hindi ko alam. Sana nga meron pa. Pero sa akin, WALA NA! 😡 Nadamay ko pa si Mousey. Lagot na rin ako kay Aljo. Double trouble pa ang napasok ko. Sorry Aljo! ✌  Going back, mas iniisip lang nila ang mga sarili nila kaysa sa feelings ng iba. Hindi ko alam kung makakaposty pa kaya ako pagkatapos nito. Subukan ko munang mag-calm down at baka mabalikan ko kayo mamaya.’

———————————————————————————————————————————More like a monologue. Well, I actually wrote, no typed that in the iPhone cuz luckily I had it with me cuz I was planning to play Crossy Road. The whole time I was on the couch crying my way thinking that I was ‘never loved, cared and was useless’. Well, I think that every time I cry because of Nico. Main reason is favoritism. When Mama was saying that it was time to eat, I didn’t want to eat yet. So I waited ’til everyone was finished. Because of that, I ate alone. But before that, Mama pursuaded me twice. On the second time, I felt her love for me but I think it’ll just go away and come back when it needed to. At least the food helped restore my normal self again. Thanks giniling!

Leanna visited again as usual with Uncle Lee and Auntie Tame but without the boxing equipment. She said she was excited. Excited about what? I seriously don’t know. I just overheard her. Sorry. ✌ One sad update about Forevermore. It’s gonna end only 5 more episodes and it’s good to go. The replacement will be ‘Pangako Sa’yo’ starring KathNiel. 

Let’s call it a night. We need sleep, too. ‘ ‘ need sleep, too. We are going to the Temple of Leah and Taoist Temple like I said. I’m excited for tomorrow and recovered from the situation ago. It seems like Nico wasn’t affected at all. I’m still not sure if we will go to the carnival. I hope so. So goodnight everyone! Sweet dreams! ⭐